Rushing Times


When your not in a rush and the rush comes to you, what can we do when we cannot become a hermit and hide from the outside world?

Whether it be driving down the road, in the stores or the people in our lives some how we can’t seem to escape the pushy rush of life. Maybe it is because I have had a lot going on in my own life that I am taking more notice of the rush going on around me. I have seen it all before, in many aspects. By being aware of my surroundings and practicing mindfulness I can stay in the flow much longer and easier.  If we all did this even half of the time during our day then things might not get so frustrating. There are many of us that give and give of our time and our patience. We wait that extra minute so that rushing car can go ahead of us, or so the person in the store  that almost runs into you can go ahead and that friend that is always in a hurry we give our time to instead of ourselves. Let it be we say as we let all the rushing pass us by.

What do we do when all the rushing starts to affect us? When our world starts to spin and we tire of “being pushed”! Every chance you get…..sit in silence, read a book, do a meditation, write in a journal or create something. If silence doesn’t work then play a game, have a nice dinner with a good friend or spouse. Find your balance between the rush and your inner peace. When being rushed is getting to you on the inside and your peace is disrupted this can cause you to get sick, hurt someones feelings or cause pain to yourself or someone else.

I have found myself in this place the last few days and I needed to step back and look into my life, what was going on and I know that when I realize that I am being impatient and easily frustrated that I am not centered. Finding time to reevaluate and get back to myself again is important for not only me but everyone.  When my inner light goes dim it effects the world around me. I do my best to remember that when I am in a positive heart state it reflects out to the people around me. Practicing mindfulness everyday is a challenge and being diligent can be as well especially when I am off balance. I say to myself when I get off track that I am human and move forward into a loving place. Such as the the in the life of a light worker.

This entry is a bit different then my usual poetry but it is a blog all the same. I wish to inspire by expression and if my writings help just one person to get that twinkle of light then I am grateful.


Love and Blessings, Tonya


In the Moment


Blended is what we do….

When we gather..

Sharing space in this common world…

We call home….

Seeing all with different eyes……

Illusions they are…

So it seems…

Only will the truth show…

When in the moment we stay…..

Does the time seem to stop…

Peace becomes reality….

Blended are we…

Shall we stay….

In the moment…..


We create our own peace within and when we are gathered in that peace becoming blended as one. In that moment we see as one, feel as one and lift the world as one! By holding onto that feeling even as we depart from one another we can hold within our hearts that peace and continue that moment so that it will radiate outward to the rest of the world for which we share space ❤


Relationships of all forms can be challenging. We have no trouble expressing our love and caring for one another in most cases. Giving thanks in the form of a hug, a smile and even a kiss on the cheek. This is the common way to express love and gratitude to the ones we love. As a child I was raised that way and I raised my children in the same way. My friendships I treat in the same matter because I love and have compassion for all of my relationships. This doesn’t mean that everyone is like that in their relationships. Whether it be family or friends some of us have a hard time expressing love in that way.  A hug can be foreign to many that have never felt love or have been shown compassion from others. It does not matter where we are from because love is the same in every part of the world.

On the other hand we have anger and again, we have no trouble expressing this emotion in our relationships. Some relationships people express the love and the anger with no problem. Why shouldn’t they? These emotions go hand in hand when you share space with others. We are all so different in our expectations that sometimes we agree but disagree. Many of us can show self control with the anger we may carry towards another and then some over express this towards their loved one causing deep hurt. Both parties suffer by feeling unloved and cared for by the other. With both love and anger we can loose the vision of what the other person really means to us because we let that emotion control the true feeling within. 

At some point there is going to be resentment towards the one that either loved or angered too much. We as humans can hold on to this feeling for an entire life time. Taking away from our own peace and even that of others. Undeserving of feeling this way or carrying such a burden. When we cannot express love or anger to the ones we care so much about in our lives. When we struggle so much for the words but cannot seem to find them. We loose ourselves in the process and forget as time passes why we have continued to hold resentment for so long. We allow this to control our present lives knowing we should let go of the past. 

Instead of living in a tunnel by only seeing what we feel and not seeing that relationships take team work.  We take part in the matters of the heart just as much as the others do. I would like to see the relationships in others heal as well as some of my own. What a difference it would make for many if there was a way to do this without the confrontation so many of us worry about. This is why there is so much strain and suffering on our relationships. The unspoken words can fester and spoil years of happiness in our relationships. 

Enough sadness and  sorrow. Let there be love and joy. Expand the love we feel in our hearts and find a way to heal those that have held on to these burdens!

There is a way! I shall start and you may follow, if you choose to.

(include the name of your loved one in this prayer)


Love and Blessings to you and yours,

XO, Tonya

~Where did the Time go~

Path Divided

Where did the time go…

when we were mutual…

where did the time go..

one being to busy…

for the other…

where did the time go…

when it wasn’t about….

getting out there…

where did the time go…

when one wasn’t so drawn…..

into one’s self…

where did the time go….

when joy and peace….

flowed through out….

where did the time go….

when one had the time…… 


~TonyaMB ~