A Time To Heal~

Healing Lotus

There is a pull within your heart…

Vibrating as it may feel…

A Time To Heal?

As it travels to the Sacral…

Pushing….Pulling…

This feeling flowing …

Upward and Down…

A Time To Heal?

How does this feel?

Positive….to disagree…

Negative…it has to be…

Feeling unbalanced…

Even lost it seems..

Agree… it is ..

A Time To Heal..

You See….

TonyaMB’14

A time to heal

Release and Heal ♥

Full Moon Ceremony. I released some really powerful things that I had been dealing with. Such as anxiety and impatience. I was so very ready to let go of what I had been dealing with and I trust very much in the ceremony that I go to at my teacher’s house.

She uses a very traditional Native American Full Moon Release Ceremony. We use tobacco, hold it to our hearts say our prayer for release and then we burn it. Once the tobacco is gone our release is complete. We also do the same when we replace what we released with positive intentions. This fills our outer energy field completely back up.

Gratitude always closes the evening and we all have a lot to share when it comes to that. The cookies and tea were good tonight also.

I have a lot of faith in this ceremony because I have asked for things in the past months and they were given to me. Such as standing in my own power and truth. I received this about two weeks after the ceremony. Wham it hit me but not hard at all, it felt like I always had done it, like it was natural.

So naturally I had a lot to go with this time, I even had it all written down.

3 hours after ceremony,

Now I know that I have some awareness of energies around me. Sometimes it is a scent or a sound, something out of the ordinary. The funny thing about this whole “gift exchange” as I am going to call it. I was in the restroom when this happened. Here’s the short of it……..

As I was sitting there for not long at all, I heard howling like the wind, as if to be blowing along the wall and around to me. I started to get the chills big time and giggles (I giggle when I receive things) So I run into the room where my husband is and I’m cracking up and shaking all over with chills. I can’t stop laughing as I am telling him about my experience, and still stiff with the chills. Energy just seemed to be vibrating through me. WOW………. I finally said to my husband the healing has begun!! Thats got to be it…

I am not sure if anyone has ever released what no longer serves them and in return asked for what does but this is very powerful. I would suggest doing it the next full moon ♥

Healing Moon

Where is my Patience?

Patience” I Am Patience” my affirmation all the time.

I catch myself when I have lost it. The more I try… haha try’ the more I lose it.

Sometimes it’s like 0-Bitch in 2 seconds….with a quickness!!! If ever I tested myself with anything, I feel this is it!!

Everyday is a test in our faith, trust,love,gratitude,hope….

Judgement,power, truth….

and yes Patience!! So many more things we are tested and usually (for me) the ones I feel that I struggle with most are the ones that are chosen for me to be tested!! Yep… The ones I must work on, so of course this BIG one for me is going to get lost and then come back once I catch it.

I ask for help with this, I pray, I catch myself losing it and I still struggle even when I turn it into positive.

I even defended losing my patience with going through menopause(there’s a pill for that mood stuff BTW) and I was home alone. I do talk to myself, this is a form of figuring it out…outloud. We all know this…..right? 😉

What makes me feel the absolute WORST is losing it toward my husband when it isn’t even him that did anything. It is a vibe that I have from something else. Don’t get me wrong, though I did say bitch earlier, I’m really not a screaming maniac! It’s just a few snips here and there. I just feel like one when I am a happy go lucky woman. I need to add my grandchildren to this  though I know they can be a test of patience like all children……BUT…… I feel bad in all situations that I loose my Patience!!

Last but not least is what I believe to be a HUGE part of where my patience has gone… “ELECTRONIC TECHNOLOGY ” Phones and Computers!!! The way of the future that has drug us into it’s grasp and has no intentions of letting us go!!! I am connected like more than half the world and I am sure like many of us, the second a page doesn’t load, freezes, battery dies, a dropped call or no Service!! There goes my Patience….”it never fails” … Damn thing!! Computers suck… I’m getting rid of it” oHH and the best one…” I’M GOING TO THROW THIS ACROSS THE ROOM”!!!!!

Ughh… have been there!! I wonder? As much as we need all of this technology. Our future is ultimately going in that direction. Are we being pulled away from it by another source. Something in the universe that may not want our future to turn out so reliant on machines?

There are days as of late that I have felt that way. Day’s that I need to walk away and disconnect myself from the computer all together. If I sit and try to keep going I get irritating vibes and there goes my patience. It seems to come from within like there is energy pulling me away. I’m not saying that a lagging internet or an update doesn’t frazzle me.

I am looking for an answer that I have not yet gotten from within myself or otherwise.

I consider this a journal entry because when we journal it is  a form of prayer… So God, Mother Mary, My guides and Angels… I ask for your help with this now ♥ amen